Daily Draw May 25th, 2011
Yesterday I was feeling very tired, my skin had no colour, I was having trouble breathing which is a sign that my blood pressure has risen too far, and I felt restless. I took out two volumes of Stuart Kaplan’s Encyclopedia of Tarot and had a browse, which picked me up. Then I took a couple of decks out to look at and I felt happier.
When I was looking at the Gods and Goddesses Deck, I kept coming back to one card Dhanvantari, who is an avatar of Vishnu that removes physical suffering and frees you from disease for greater well-being. Dhanvantari is supposed to have created Ayurvedic medicine and was one of the world’s first surgeons. I like that he is holding a pot of nectar or elixir that came from the churning of the ocean, the story that made me interested in Hindu mythology several years ago.
The meditation for this card suggests that simply remembering him removes all suffering.
Taking that card as my cue, I pulled a random assortment of decks and went through each one to pull a card from each that spoke to me of well-being, health, or a peaceful, healing mood. I often do comparisons with cards as a way of centering myself and to quiet my mind. It helps me pay attention and become aware. These were chosen just on feeling, regardless of the written connotations of the cards. I’m a visual person, and art and colour make me attentive. I started this when the computer was turned off and I turned off the radio too and had a nice visit with decks.
Songs for the Journey Home
The Perfect Calm Deck
Tarot of the Spirit
Circle of Life Tarot
The Mystic Rubaiyat
Tarot of Casanova
It’s amazing to me how some of these cards have similar colouring of quiet greys, blues and soft yellow or gold. I wasn’t conscious of picking cards by colour, just the feeling of peace engendered by a card.
The back massage brings to mind the expression “I’ve got your back” and also the feeling of support from another person. Sometimes when I’m hugging my husband I squeeze tightly and say I’m pushing out the bad air, which is like a lung massage I suppose. This tells me to look after my lungs and heart, and the image of birds soaring supports the idea of the freedom of natural breathing, air and outdoor exercise.
Here are some more greys, yellows and blues. I liked the feeling of bathing in the light or being covered by light. In the Circle of Life deck she is grounded in the sand—the feeling or warm sand as the ground holds the heat is comforting and supportive as well. The other one has a cloudy square behind it and seems to have a metallic frame that sparkles up with the light. Clouds, lungs, heart, the centre bathed in shimmering white light.
I used to row myself about in a small dinghy (several of them over time) while growing up. It was fun to pull the boat to shore and explore the woods and rocks, similar to this picture. Again, the light in this picture is very soothing like the dawn coming when you have risen early and are watching the smooth water and hearing the fish jump in the morning. There is a peaceful quality to nature at dawn, like in the chapter from the book The Wind in the Willows titled The Piper at the Gates of Dawn. The great God Pan is alive in the trees and water and the cool refreshment of an awakening day.
I have no idea why I picked the Tarot of Casanova for this study. I saw it and left it but then felt compelled after I’d drawn the other cards to go back and pull a card from it. This card leaped out at me, a card I don’t even remember from the deck. I think this echoes the word “ascend” from yesterday’s card. The wheel ascends and descends but here I can only see ascension. There is something a bit spooky about the recesses, cool and dank like a coming dawn, a place to hide, to cool down, to reflect. Shadows and light like the card from The Mystic Rubaiyat, stealing light, coming and going, up and down.
Really, there is something beneficial about fiddling around with card images. Comfort comes in small packages and quiet moments.