Don’t Resist Peace


“Today I will simply accept. I will relinquish the need to be in resistance to myself and my environment in any way. I will move forward in joy by accepting where I am right now.”


My Dad has been in end-of-life palliative care for some days. His body is dying, and he’s been going downhill all year, so it’s a peaceful thing and they are so good about making people comfortable in this type of palliative care and being respectful. We have been writing back and forth preparing his obituary and remembering pleasant things.

Still, it’s hard to think of him dying and leaving us with no anchor for the family. It’s a natural thing but I worry and wait. I’ve always liked that old maxim “Body at rest, spirit free” that you see in obituaries.

All kinds of release at hand today.


Who Ya Gonna Trust?



My naturopath told me I had trouble with boundaries. She wanted me to take a course with someone but I didn’t have the money. It’s probably a residual effect of birth order: I’m the youngest and simply deferred to others because it was easier than being labelled “difficult” or worse.

I love this particular thought from the back of the card:

“I will release my naïve assumption that the other person is always right. I will exchange that view for trusting and listening to myself…”

Happy Sunday!




The Palette of Life: Choose a Different Colour

Daily Draw April 1st, 2013

I laughed when I looked at the date. My Mom used to do April Fool jokes and she was so good at it that I never twigged.

My aunt died this week after having Alzheimer’s for some time. She was definitely a one-of-a-kind person, a social activist and keen traveller, someone who demonstrated and got involved, and so different from our side of the family in these ways. My Dad is her brother, and he is having trouble eating now and slipping away from us in his mind, as she did. Sad times for us all.



I feel guilty lately, with people in the family being ill, to focus on myself and my health problems. It makes me feel self-centred. The figure on this card reminds me a bit of Narcissus staring at himself in the pool. This card says that I am okay and that what I am doing is good enough. If you make mistakes and get off-track it doesn’t mean you aren’t as good as others, it just means no one is perfect and that’s fine.

I’ve been getting a lot of brown cards this week. I am not a fan of browns and yellow and I was reminded of this when I was doing some test colour swatches in my new sketchbook yesterday. Some of the yellow and brown pencils had never been used!


It might be a reminder, like the different way my Aunt lived her life, to break out and do things differently, use a bit of brown and yellow, experiment and get outside myself and reflect on something else.


Neutral Gear is Here

Daily Draw May 12th, 2012

Up at 3:30 a.m. to take an aspirin. Local boys on ATVs have recently chewed up the right-of-way through the woods so much and created hill after hill, that it’s almost impossible to walk there. For 25 years we’ve enjoyed walking there with our various dogs and it looks like that’s wrecked for us too. I hurt my knees trying to navigate it yesterday.

My husband says to let it go as it isn’t our land. Well, it isn’t their land either. Another sign that we should move in a couple of years. No place is perfect, but it seems to me that humans ruin every natural place that we share.


This is about refusing to jump into the middle of the affairs of others and relationships. Trust that others will work out their own problems including the ideas and feelings they want to communicate to each other.

So, not specifically about the situation I am worrying about but a general idea of non-interference and refusing to get upset by other people and not get in the middle of disputes. This picture looks like the hands from two people standing behind the main figure are trying to clutch his/her heart, so that the figure needs protection from them or needs to set boundaries so they can’t clutch and grab his/her emotions.

A need to insulate and protect my own heart and feelings is hinted at. I take this to mean to stay on my own property and enjoy my land and garden as I can. I trust that the situation will take care of itself if I stay neutral.


Noddy Becomes Calm and Reads a Good Book

Daily Draw February 10th, 2012



This is from The Language of Letting Go cards by Melody Beattie, a deck I’ve always liked. It is one of those odd little decks that has cheery artwork and reflections that I like.

The palpable frenzy on this card is wonderful. Pushed around the clock and thinking about love, food, the phone ringing, reading and writing, the hands on the clock like arrows, this person needs to calm down.

I did the noddy thing in the chair at 6:30 p.m. last night and again at 8 o’clock. I was plain tired so put a hot water bottle in my bed, took the dogs out, and then listened to my relaxation CD and went to sleep at 9:30 p.m. I am up at 4 a.m. but at least I got a block of sleep and should be able to go back with a hot water bottle for an hour or so after this.

There is something very peaceful about falling asleep in a chair. I had some light jazz playing on the radio and a cheery light on and a cat in my lap. I was re-reading a helpful book and felt lovely and peaceful.

I got a good book from the library called Horses Never Lie About Love that I had on hold so I’m looking forward to reading that. I had recommended that the library buy several books on art journalling and creativity and they did buy three of them for the system, two of which I have borrowed to read. You can fire the librarian but you can’t take her collection development skills away!

Good things to look forward to today. I have been eating properly for two days which also calms me down quite a bit.




Between Sinking and Swimming is Treading Water

Daily Draw July 19th, 2011

I was up and outside with my ankle strapped up for my first bike ride in seven weeks today at 6:45 a.m., then back to pick fresh blackberries off the bushes with the doglets helping. After this card of the day I’ll make some Red River cereal for breakfast and tidy up the kitchen. A good, active start to the day at least. My leg is aching but if I don’t use those muscles it will get worse.

Boy it is hot here and it’s supposed to be 37° by Thursday with the humidex making it feel like 48° or some ridiculous number. Most of our grass is burnt already so I guess we’re in for a dry summer.

Today I am using a deck called The Language of Letting Go by Melody Beattie, based on the book of the same title. I am a person who does have trouble letting things go—a symptom of my perfectionism which I must watch out for, lest I go bonkers! Too late methinks, however, I like this little deck and the artwork and design, and think it’s one of the better decks that no one seems to know about.

I love this sentence: “Panic will take my mind off my goals.”

A goal doesn’t have to be some big, planned production, it can be as simple as keeping up with laundry and getting a bike ride into the day. That’s what I like about it, any kind of goal does you good if completed, and it keeps that demon anxiety at bay. The figure floating on the card is treading water, and it’s a good reminder that treading water is better than sinking.

Being Sharp, the Initiative You Prefer

Daily Draw March 26th, 2011

Today’s interesting fact: When you sharpen a bunch of graphite pencils and put them in your cup by the computer, the world seems like a better place.

I could say “I’m on point.”

Or maybe “I’m sharp today.”

Sharp, clean, at-the-ready, available for work……….with a magnifying glass, ruler, pens, and emery boards for augmenting life’s delight.

Today’s card is from The Language of Letting Go Cards.


The advice is to watch my behaviours and actions as I form new friendships, and to learn something valuable from every interaction with another person. Except I’m not interested in forming new friendships or initiating friendships.

I am attracted to people who read a lot and are very creative in some way, always doing and trying things and learning. I avoid people who lie, gossip, bully, or browbeat. I also avoid dogmatic, inflexible people who expect others to follow their particular beliefs in order to be correct and acceptable.

On the card it says I shouldn’t worry about whether the other person likes me or accepts me. I like Wayne Dyer’s little maxim about that: “What other people think of me is none of my business.” I also like the maxim “Don’t take anything personally.” by Don Miguel Ruiz.

I’m not fond of getting close to people.

Using the words on this card, I could say that I shouldn’t worry about that either!

So I won’t.