The Entrance of The Sacred Three

I came across something while browsing on the Internet called Post-Meningitis Syndrome. There is some evidence that people suffer from this. You can cure the meningitis, but a switch goes off somewhere in the long term and can cause pain like myalgia and fibromyalgia, depression, sometimes symptoms of multiple sclerosis and loss of balance, all sorts of small things.

This makes sense to me since people who have had chicken pox often get shingles when older. I know someone who had mononucleosis when young and doctors think it might be responsible for his lymphoma in later years. I had viral meningitis when I was 18, which is not as dreadful as bacterial meningitis, but perhaps it is the source of my chronic pain, myalgia, nerve pain, insomnia? The fact that it might not be all in my mind was crucial for me, I have great respect for physiology and our finite knowledge of the brain. You never know, this might be the switch that went off and started causing problems in my body.

Due to recent ruminations on cards and not feeling connected to them I thought I’d create a new study pattern as well. I’m using what I refer to as The Sacred Three, the three decks I feel the most connection to, and ones I feel have a great depth of meaning, thought, creativity, and artistic skill. They are all black and white decks strangely enough. In order of appearance in my collection:

The Ironwing Tarot by Lorena Babcock Moore
The Diary of a Broken Soul Tarot by Ash Goh (a.k.a. Ash Abdullah)
Tarot of the Absurd by Jessica Rose Shanahan

The Big Three, the Sacred. For a bit of Tri-Sacred Sampling today I drew a card from the Tarot of the Absurd and then pulled out the corresponding cards from the other two decks.

4 of Cups
4 of Hearts (4 of Cups)
4 of Coils (4 of Cups)


Too tired, too tired to have fun. Not another glass of champagne, I already had one. Ennui and fatigue. It’s good to rest a bit, to let it go to let yourself drift in boredom. This definitely reminds me of the way I’ve been feeling about cards.

The 4 of Hearts in the Diary deck certainly reminds me of two minds, two wills or perhaps the mind and body snarling at each other. Caught in the middle, he wraps his arm with protective swaddling and tries to sort it out. It looks tiring.

Lorena says “Stability; finding or creating sacred space.” with regard to the number symbolism, and Water which is the element connected to the Coils suit is about rest in the fours. I read this after I started thinking about sacredness and decks, and which decks I consider sacred. Synchronicity, I must be on the right track with this study.

This card depicts a hornpod entwined with an iron replica of a hornpod. I saw an artist sculpting wonderful dragons from the pods of hornpod. Hornpods seem to have worlds within worlds. Again the aspects of ennui, fatigue, death, dryness, cycles, balance. You need the cycle of death and dryness, the withdrawal and waiting is necessary. This also reminds me of the horns of the uterus in women, a place where seeds also go through a cycle.

Sacred rest, rest in sacredness. As you find it, it will mirror you inside and outside.



Harmonious Posturing, Humming Like Eurrhypara hortulata

Daily Draw June 10th, 2013

I had a fabulous day yesterday. I finally hooked the spouse up with his brother on Skype after four months. Then I did some artwork and discovered a new moth!

Back to Monday, alas. Lunch Bag Letdown.

6 OF STICKS (6 of Wands)


Victory, victory! Notice how in tune with their environment these chaps are? Their harmonious posturing speaks to me of cogs fitting together, of people working together and things moving as they should, with flexibility and grace.

So the trick is not to let yourself feel let down on Monday, but to continue on with the dance.


Anchors Away

Daily Draw April 28th, 2013

It’s a bit frazzling to do a home renovation. The worst of it is coming this week when he puts the tile floors down because we have to move the appliances into the living room and all the stuff off the sun porch and not use that area while the cement and tiling and everything sets and cures. This cuts me off from my basement too.

So, I had to take a break from worrying and make some beads for a wedding outfit yesterday. I realized it was bothering me that I hadn’t finished the necklace and earrings for my outfit and time was running out. I felt a lot better for starting that. I can work on it in the living room when the contractor is here.

3 OF BLADES (3 of Swords)


Another refreshingly different card from Jessica Shanahan. I belong to the “No, no, no, not the stabbed heart on the 3 of Swords!” group. I can’t stand it when people follow the conventional Rider-Waite depiction on this card.

Clipped wings or wings torn away from the body or pulling the body, but I was mesmerized by the lower anchor shape being cut, as if the person’s moorings were sliced away. There is also the suggestion of a forked tail there, reminding me of the Devil, and the bitter, obsessive thoughts connected to this card.

It can also be a card of great release and moving somewhere else: you float when the anchor goes. The idea that an experience can be painful yet beneficial is here. Let it go.

Good thoughts for this day.



The Queen of Coins in Black and White

Daily Draw March 22nd, 2013

I drew a card from the Tarot of the Absurd, and then I thought it might be an interesting study to pull the same card from other black and white decks, so this is a small study of the Queen of Coins or Queen of Pentacles.

The one that started it all:


Many people seem to attach the mothering gene to The Empress, but for me she is always this Queen. She stops to smell the flower, stops to nurture herself and others. There is something about the chair in this card, the cut-outs seem to allow for growth or change if not innovation, and the idea of movement and air circulating is here, like the openness this Queen has to others, like the tracery in the window, allowing and nurturing different paths.


Steve Bright has retitled the Queen “Nurturer of Pentacles”in his Fragments of an Illusion deck. In this case the queen is a Dad making sure he spends time with a young child even though he wants to fiddle on his computer.

In the Hermetic, she is associated with a goat for fertility. I like that he’s drawn a spiral on her helmet for snails and the fertility of the Earth too.

The Enigma makes mention of comfort not being for you alone, but something you give to others along with support. This drawing was a study for one of the angels in Da Vinci’s painting Madonna of the Rocks, so there is an angelic security or support hinted at here.

The Ship of Fools card displays the Queen with a mirror, an emblem of vanity and pride and it looks like a demon is going to roast her over a fire, an image the reminds me of several saints being tortured and grilled in history. The Queen seems unconcerned, a product of her grounded nature, although there is a hint that she might get carried away with material things and vanity.


Well, Queen Victoria had a lot of children herself and the stewardship of her people, which is a mothering concern. This is another very secure and dignified Queen and obviously fertile, generous too. There is that reciprocal idea of care and concern, also found in the Tarokado.

Ah the Ironwing, this is the Madrone of Bells, and the name madrone comes from the Arizona madrone tree which is a type of arbutus tree. My mother loved the Pacific arbutus. I was just copying out a poem for my Dad and I put an image of an arbutus with it. For me it is MOTHER and it’s so touching to see it referenced here. Proof that when you least expect it, a card will reach out to you. Collaboration and generosity, yet with productive work as crystals in a dark cave were transformed to provide the fruitful berries, and this Queen shares with animals too.

The Ravenswood deck shows the Queen with a necklace with a gold bull’s head. She has the freedom and wealth to share and seems very quiet and contained.

Le Tarokado is a French deck from Quebec. My French fell down on this one but it says something about everything being sacred and what returns is dedicated or consecrated. So in generosity and nurturing, the Queen has it returned to her and then she dedicates it to others again. Also in this card she looks very calm and contained, very grounded.


This card is so big I had to put it on its own. Again, you can see the goat association with fertility and also earthy impulses. I was interested that the dark and light aspect of the halves of the Queen is associated with versions of the Earth Mother from early cultures, and there is a suggestion of a third eye in the image. The darkness reminds me of the cave description in the Ironwing, where it is not dark and wet but fertile. Soil and growth and invention—I like the idea of invention as you grow things from your mind.


The Kaos shows another mother, nurturing a child. Comfortable and generous, secure productive and practical. She is really a great influence on people as well as taking care of them, she inspires us to be better, to work and be fruitful in many ways.

The Queen of Diamonds in the Diary deck also seems to have a third eye. The spider web on her face and the spider-like qualities of the jewel in her forehead remind me of the mythology of the Great Mother or Great Weaver, the creator of the world in several world mythologies. The web of life and mothering qualities are here, but there is also a watchfulness to this Queen, as a guardian to the Earth, a nurturing omniscience.

I don’t often get this card, but with my Dad going into a care home and his condominium being sold off, it does remind me of my Mom. She has been dead for twenty years but that was her home and as such it was an anchor or home base in the family and a reminder of her spirit.

The Madrone of Bells came to say “I am still here.” The other Queens say the same thing, and watch and comfort.



In Which I Contemplate Ignoreland

How fitting that the card that originally got me to buy my first tarot deck comes up today.


I resolve to interrupt the signal. The Chariot and I are going on a journey for a bit. I loved this from the Power Tarot book:

“A chronic health problem improves significantly and part of it is due to the fact that you’re too busy with other things to obsess about it.”

I’m not up to talking, so having another type of journey. I have just started Faces and Masks, the second book in Eduardo Galeano’s Memory of Fire trilogy. So glad I picked this set of books up again.

See you some time.



Stitch in the Warmth of the Sun

Daily Draw February 19th, 2013

My cat Stitch is down at the vet. They are keeping him in to do blood work, urinalysis, and a fecal exam. He definitely looks like his teeth are infected but he is so emaciated there might be an underlying problem, hence all the tests. He eats a lot and has energy but has lost two pounds and is down to six pounds so not good. He is only 8 years-old too so it is shocking to see him deteriorate.

I reach for the Tarot of the Absurd, because I trust that deck to tell it like it is about this situation.

19 – THE SUN


Stitch is my baby boy, so this is quite apt. The warm breath of The Sun embraces him, he is happy and content. I feel better knowing he’s being looked after by the woman who has been our vet for 24 years. I feel this looks good for health and healing. Cleaning, purifying warmth.

I just want to focus on that sweet little boy all curled up and safe.



Riddles of the Absurd

Daily Draw January 5th, 2013

Well, I rocketed to the sky this morning when I saw this post on Jessica Shanahan’s blog about the Tarot of the Absurd Riddles.

Oooooh, a riddle, a puzzle, a chance to put cards in order and attach words to them and take a picture. The feel of the cards on the fingers, the snap of them when you lay them down, the spacing, the rows, the snipping and reordering of concepts, the details, the puzzle, the layout, the cards you had forgotten, the stars that you missed.

For me, this was a delightful meditative exercise, the entire concept of it appealed to me. This is a woman with ideas folk out there. She is writing a book, and I am looking forward to that moment, that exquisite moment when thought becomes concept, becomes words, becomes a book, becomes a thought to be read by others.

Plus I got to play with my scissors and lay cards out over the doll quilt I am pinning on my drafting board. I can actually see my drafting board, what better moment for meditation?

by Jessica Rose Shanahan


There they be fellow riddlers on the path of life, and that’s today’s draw.

Update: Rats, I got 3 wrong. More assimilation of concepts needed….