I bet you thought it was The Fool, but no, it’s Strength. So why today did that big, black rock just hit me in the eye? See how important it is that he stand his ground with the lion?
Confronting things that consume or scare us: I have yet again run into a woman online that I want to back away from. Normally, there is a give and take to acquaintance, sometimes you don’t have much in common, and it all fades out. In this case, she has unsettled me by gossiping about and denigrating another person I know. On and on. I have never had a problem with the other person. As well, she keeps sending me private messages wanting to know if I’ve written her or received her letter. I always post when I send or receive things, so there is no need to badger me.
Feeling uncomfortable, I wish I hadn’t sent the gossip a letter. When she replied she sent me about 3 pages, 2.5 pages of which reiterated everything I’d ever said to her, noting all the details I had mentioned. Yikes, now the red flags are really darting about. I have now received a Christmas card and start feeling bad for not wanting to speak with her, but alarms are sounding, I want to escape.
Noting that she is now on her third account at the online place I met her, I think I might not be the only one who has had trouble with her.
I’m not a great one for ignoring things, I tend to do like the figure on the card and confront. Not this time. Still, if I choose to block this person is that not Strength, is that not showing that I am boss? I don’t want emotionally unbalanced people in my life ever again, nor do I want to gossip, nor do I want to talk about my life with someone who does gossip.
I have a fear of involvement and I have a fear of breaking away because good people don’t ignore others. I don’t know about that, I think it’s time to rewrite the script of what being a “good little girl” entails.