Forget Pentacles, Acquire a MicroSD card



Yeah, Queenie knows the score. Get a big, fat memory card for that new Smartphone you don’t like, it’s money well spent. After that figure out how to make the clock alarm ring and gave it a special ringtone. Now, you’re talking usefulness!

She stands for security and groundedness, the need to acquire property (which in my case is literal as I look for a home), and feelings of mistrust. Come on Queenie, haven’t you heard the new mantra: “Trust that all will be well”?

Sure, come on, download an app for something.




Stay a While Winged Black One

As yet, I haven’t found a crow figure to go with this deck. Considering a whole suit is devoted to crows, I hope I stumble across one. I’ll have to start looking at erasers and key chains for crows to see if I can scrounge one up. There are several decks with good crow cards here and there but I like this one.

QUEEN OF CROWS (Queen of Pentacles)


I often see the plodding earthiness of this suit with the Knight of Pentacles, not so much with the Queen, but that’s what I feel today.

It’s a day for letting the flock fly on while you stop and speak to other little creatures on the ground like this sparrow. Feel a fallen tree under your claws, smell the grass, look up at the sky but stay put. Let’s be honest, they are probably talking about Dave’s new lambs and wanting to go see them in the barn.

Happy Sunday!



Crow Laughs at Dawn

I was looking at a linden tree near my house last night and thinking it was getting overgrown and encroaching on the roof. It has ramped up my anxiety again. I woke myself up having a dream about the septic bed being ruined. Pervasive anxiety is quite uncomfortable. Perhaps the whole house repair thing is simply getting to me? We are waiting for the roofing contractor to replace our roof, and it will be in around two weeks they are coming, plus many other things need taken care of.

QUEEN OF CROWS (Queen of Pentacles)


I like crows. I like the early morning cawing they do, their graceful flight over trees, but I haven’t felt the same about them since I saw one steal a grackle nestling and eat it. For some reason they target the grackles, and they are doing it again this year.

Crow can hover over you like a benign Auntie, nurturing and safe, or Crow can be the looming, black menace of anxiety about your hatchling chicks. Crow can smile and laugh or she can peck the meat off your skeleton.

Still, she is a Queen and has stewardship over her subjects. Her power can be overwhelming but it’s good to have power around. She tells me that inner power is always available, no mater how anxious one is, there is intellect. The intellect needs a focus like the sparrow here is focused on the robin.

I don’t know, I’m hither and thither. Maybe Crow says “Fly with it, float over it, don’t fight it.”

Breathe, laugh, chat to the sparrows.



The Queen of Coins in Black and White

Daily Draw March 22nd, 2013

I drew a card from the Tarot of the Absurd, and then I thought it might be an interesting study to pull the same card from other black and white decks, so this is a small study of the Queen of Coins or Queen of Pentacles.

The one that started it all:


Many people seem to attach the mothering gene to The Empress, but for me she is always this Queen. She stops to smell the flower, stops to nurture herself and others. There is something about the chair in this card, the cut-outs seem to allow for growth or change if not innovation, and the idea of movement and air circulating is here, like the openness this Queen has to others, like the tracery in the window, allowing and nurturing different paths.


Steve Bright has retitled the Queen “Nurturer of Pentacles”in his Fragments of an Illusion deck. In this case the queen is a Dad making sure he spends time with a young child even though he wants to fiddle on his computer.

In the Hermetic, she is associated with a goat for fertility. I like that he’s drawn a spiral on her helmet for snails and the fertility of the Earth too.

The Enigma makes mention of comfort not being for you alone, but something you give to others along with support. This drawing was a study for one of the angels in Da Vinci’s painting Madonna of the Rocks, so there is an angelic security or support hinted at here.

The Ship of Fools card displays the Queen with a mirror, an emblem of vanity and pride and it looks like a demon is going to roast her over a fire, an image the reminds me of several saints being tortured and grilled in history. The Queen seems unconcerned, a product of her grounded nature, although there is a hint that she might get carried away with material things and vanity.


Well, Queen Victoria had a lot of children herself and the stewardship of her people, which is a mothering concern. This is another very secure and dignified Queen and obviously fertile, generous too. There is that reciprocal idea of care and concern, also found in the Tarokado.

Ah the Ironwing, this is the Madrone of Bells, and the name madrone comes from the Arizona madrone tree which is a type of arbutus tree. My mother loved the Pacific arbutus. I was just copying out a poem for my Dad and I put an image of an arbutus with it. For me it is MOTHER and it’s so touching to see it referenced here. Proof that when you least expect it, a card will reach out to you. Collaboration and generosity, yet with productive work as crystals in a dark cave were transformed to provide the fruitful berries, and this Queen shares with animals too.

The Ravenswood deck shows the Queen with a necklace with a gold bull’s head. She has the freedom and wealth to share and seems very quiet and contained.

Le Tarokado is a French deck from Quebec. My French fell down on this one but it says something about everything being sacred and what returns is dedicated or consecrated. So in generosity and nurturing, the Queen has it returned to her and then she dedicates it to others again. Also in this card she looks very calm and contained, very grounded.


This card is so big I had to put it on its own. Again, you can see the goat association with fertility and also earthy impulses. I was interested that the dark and light aspect of the halves of the Queen is associated with versions of the Earth Mother from early cultures, and there is a suggestion of a third eye in the image. The darkness reminds me of the cave description in the Ironwing, where it is not dark and wet but fertile. Soil and growth and invention—I like the idea of invention as you grow things from your mind.


The Kaos shows another mother, nurturing a child. Comfortable and generous, secure productive and practical. She is really a great influence on people as well as taking care of them, she inspires us to be better, to work and be fruitful in many ways.

The Queen of Diamonds in the Diary deck also seems to have a third eye. The spider web on her face and the spider-like qualities of the jewel in her forehead remind me of the mythology of the Great Mother or Great Weaver, the creator of the world in several world mythologies. The web of life and mothering qualities are here, but there is also a watchfulness to this Queen, as a guardian to the Earth, a nurturing omniscience.

I don’t often get this card, but with my Dad going into a care home and his condominium being sold off, it does remind me of my Mom. She has been dead for twenty years but that was her home and as such it was an anchor or home base in the family and a reminder of her spirit.

The Madrone of Bells came to say “I am still here.” The other Queens say the same thing, and watch and comfort.



Three from the Ashes of St. John of the Cross

Daily Draw March 8th, 2012

I downloaded a PDF file from CCEL of three of the books of St. John of the Cross to use with the Diary of a Broken Soul Tarot. Ash often quotes John or cites his poetry so I thought he would be an apt tie-in to this deck. There are pages and pages of excellent notes in these files that I will read.

This particular quote was one I chose randomly and it turns out to be one of the most famous quotes from the book Ascent of Mt. Carmel by John. I just saw the word “bird” while scrolling and stopped when it leapt out to me, I had no idea.


I was up at 1 a.m. (and it is now 3 a.m.) with terrible nausea. I ate some bread for lunch and dinner, hence the nausea. The old patterns keep rearing up. This quote with its reference to being held by cords and attachment, really hit home for that reason.

The 4 of Diamonds is also known as the 4 of Pentacles and I often refer to this as the Miser card. This is a person who thinks they never have enough, and what they have they keep to themselves. I love this card with the wild guardian in the tree and her stare of malevolence. “Get away from my stuff!” Even her knees are held up defensively. Speaking of attachment and attaining liberty, her hands are gripping, even her hair is gripping the tree. Those things she is guarding are embedded deeply in that tree, the better to hold them there where no one can snatch them, my pretty.

The Queen of Diamonds is farseeing today, looking over her dominion, wondering why that guy will not set himself free from the web. She’s a motherly sort but even she loses patience with people who won’t let go and get on with it.

The Hanged Man is hanging, attached to that bloody web that won’t let him go, OR that he’s tied himself to. Sticky, sticky, stickiness. You’ll be hanging there until the end of your life if you aren’t careful.

For it comes to the same thing.

Bite Me Pragmatism

Daily Draw November 1st, 2011


The Queen of Stones is supposed to be a grounded person…errr bear, but she’s a bit touchy today.

I guess you can tell how I feel: like a bear. I think I must be going through a detox period where the body is leaching out chemicals and becoming irritable. There is a period when you get a grip on eating processed food loaded with fat and salt, when the body has to do the dance of balancing itself again. Mine is doing the jitterbug of anxiety and sleeplessness.

In an effort to calm myself I warped up my loom but small things started going wrong so I stopped that. it looks colourful though, too bad I can’t touch it without wanting to hurl it across the room.

According to The Wildwood Tarot book my beauty and welcoming nature make me popular with all and I’m generous and pragmatic, filled with confidence, prosperity and assurance. Sorry boys, I want to go into my cave.

I get it, today this card is reversed!

I bought a couple of cheap books on the Alexander Technique for alleviating chronic pain. Similar to the Feldenkrais Method it deals with posture and how you move and awareness, and also similar is the way they want you to pay for classes rather than use a book. I don’t drive, practitioners of these methods are an hour or more away from me, and I don’t have the money for expensive courses.

So much for getting help through the caring, sharing network for mind/body solutions. However, the books I have coming should be helpful. I do everything else by myself, this will be more of the same.

Still, it’s irritating, as is the fact that I can’t find an exercise mat to pay for with Sears gift cards, so I’ll have to order it by phone and pay a $4 fee for shipping it to my catalogue store, and I’m walking like I’m on stilts because my knees aren’t working properly and my hips aren’t releasing and the bloody spouse won’t take a day off work to help me, and my cold is coming back for the third time, and dogs are bringing in piles of bloody leaves on their feet and so on.