Okanagan Oracle Colour Study 8: Transformation

I love cemeteries and cemetery history, so I really enjoyed pulling out this card. It is such a missed opportunity for the locations in the deck not to be identified. I love to explore and look things up in a deck, but this hunt and peck sort of thing for basic information is maddening.

In looking this up at Find a Grave, the stone is in the Kelowna Memorial Park Cemetery, one of two cemeteries in Kelowna and the stone is for Clarissa Graves 1878-1912. Only 34 years-old, perhaps she died in childbirth; we see you still Clarissa, that’s the nice thing about cemeteries.

TRANSFORMATION – Okanagan Oracle
VEINTE-QUATRO ANT – Paraponera clavata – Bugs Knowledge Cards
BORON – Photographic Card Deck of the Elements
A STREET MUSICIAN – Platinum print by J. Furley Lewis – Pomegranate Postcard
29 GRAVE – FUTHARK RUNE EA (ear, grave) – Rune Cards by Linsell/Partridge
THE LAKE WITHIN – High Priestess – Fragments of an Illusion Tarot by Steven Bright (1st edition)


Gosh, aren’t these interesting together? I was looking for grey tones as well, rather than strictly black and white. The ant is among tens of thousands of species of ants, but the sting of this giant species can incapacitate you. So can death and transformation.

Boron is found in the more common borax but is rarely seen in its pure form, these brittle, impractical lumps. Yeah, you lumps out there with your brittle attachment to life, it’s impractical, accept that death is coming, the atomic weight of the grave will roll over you eventually.

I chose the postcard with the violinist because it reminds me of the mournful music played in cemeteries, and yet look at the bright, captivated face of the child, young and old, music binds the spheres and makes life better, transforms fear.

There is literally the grave in the rune card. Again, stop wrestling with the idea of death or the grave that awaits you, but think about sunlight on stone, a life of contemplation in gardens with birds, the end, the transformation is part of the companionship of death.

Lastly, The Lake Within, what a beautiful name for the High Priestess. I think of dark and light, death and life, opposites, and the way you know things deep inside, the progression and transformation of life is a lake within.




Woes of the Wimpy Warrior

Daily Draw May 10th, 2013

Two of the new porcelain tiles in the kitchen have lifted already by the door and several more are making popping sounds. Our contractor has gone to the States for a horse show, but he still has to fix the counter end that isn’t capped and we are withholding a final payment. Good thing too. We have had him do work before with no problem. More stress, more worry when we don’t have the money. We had to do something as the kitchen was falling apart and had plumbing issues. The sunporch floor seems to be okay but my confidence in the idea of ceramic tile floors has disappeared.

I’m so upset I can’t sleep or concentrate, I’ve been up since 3 a.m., my usual hour of magical awakening to worry. I’m numb. My husband is the same, we are both tired of worrying. I feel like giving up. There is nothing ahead of me that’s worth living for. Constant physical pain and the worries of life sap enjoyment from my life.

So I’ll grab a card and see.



Well, he’s taking a warrior stance, the masked crusader. I also get the feeling of youth and lack of maturity here. Pages are like that. There is a lack of judgement in their interaction with people, kind of a “fools rush in” way of dealing with things that can be trouble.

I love this line from the Power Tarot book: “He finds it easier to detach from problems than to solve them.” Exactly so.

I have had perpetual stress for over a decade. It has worn my mind and body down. I find it hard to detach usually, but I’ve been learning lessons about the perils of attachment since 1999. I suppose it’s about finding the middle way, finding a way to be detached but not so detached and ambivalent that you don’t take action. The balance between determination and discouragement is an intellectual concept, a choice maybe.

People deal with upsets all the time, they just forge on. I think of mindfulness meditation and feeling things, acknowledging what comes up in the mind, no matter how upsetting or tiresome, and simply living with it, dealing with it peacefully. Not forcing it but flowing through it. During the past month I have often said to my husband, “I am tired of worrying about every little thing, I can’t do it any more.” So that’s a type of detachment that is good, but not good if it continues into refusing to deal with what comes up in life.

Rambling on at 4:51 a.m….


The Queen of Coins in Black and White

Daily Draw March 22nd, 2013

I drew a card from the Tarot of the Absurd, and then I thought it might be an interesting study to pull the same card from other black and white decks, so this is a small study of the Queen of Coins or Queen of Pentacles.

The one that started it all:


Many people seem to attach the mothering gene to The Empress, but for me she is always this Queen. She stops to smell the flower, stops to nurture herself and others. There is something about the chair in this card, the cut-outs seem to allow for growth or change if not innovation, and the idea of movement and air circulating is here, like the openness this Queen has to others, like the tracery in the window, allowing and nurturing different paths.


Steve Bright has retitled the Queen “Nurturer of Pentacles”in his Fragments of an Illusion deck. In this case the queen is a Dad making sure he spends time with a young child even though he wants to fiddle on his computer.

In the Hermetic, she is associated with a goat for fertility. I like that he’s drawn a spiral on her helmet for snails and the fertility of the Earth too.

The Enigma makes mention of comfort not being for you alone, but something you give to others along with support. This drawing was a study for one of the angels in Da Vinci’s painting Madonna of the Rocks, so there is an angelic security or support hinted at here.

The Ship of Fools card displays the Queen with a mirror, an emblem of vanity and pride and it looks like a demon is going to roast her over a fire, an image the reminds me of several saints being tortured and grilled in history. The Queen seems unconcerned, a product of her grounded nature, although there is a hint that she might get carried away with material things and vanity.


Well, Queen Victoria had a lot of children herself and the stewardship of her people, which is a mothering concern. This is another very secure and dignified Queen and obviously fertile, generous too. There is that reciprocal idea of care and concern, also found in the Tarokado.

Ah the Ironwing, this is the Madrone of Bells, and the name madrone comes from the Arizona madrone tree which is a type of arbutus tree. My mother loved the Pacific arbutus. I was just copying out a poem for my Dad and I put an image of an arbutus with it. For me it is MOTHER and it’s so touching to see it referenced here. Proof that when you least expect it, a card will reach out to you. Collaboration and generosity, yet with productive work as crystals in a dark cave were transformed to provide the fruitful berries, and this Queen shares with animals too.

The Ravenswood deck shows the Queen with a necklace with a gold bull’s head. She has the freedom and wealth to share and seems very quiet and contained.

Le Tarokado is a French deck from Quebec. My French fell down on this one but it says something about everything being sacred and what returns is dedicated or consecrated. So in generosity and nurturing, the Queen has it returned to her and then she dedicates it to others again. Also in this card she looks very calm and contained, very grounded.


This card is so big I had to put it on its own. Again, you can see the goat association with fertility and also earthy impulses. I was interested that the dark and light aspect of the halves of the Queen is associated with versions of the Earth Mother from early cultures, and there is a suggestion of a third eye in the image. The darkness reminds me of the cave description in the Ironwing, where it is not dark and wet but fertile. Soil and growth and invention—I like the idea of invention as you grow things from your mind.


The Kaos shows another mother, nurturing a child. Comfortable and generous, secure productive and practical. She is really a great influence on people as well as taking care of them, she inspires us to be better, to work and be fruitful in many ways.

The Queen of Diamonds in the Diary deck also seems to have a third eye. The spider web on her face and the spider-like qualities of the jewel in her forehead remind me of the mythology of the Great Mother or Great Weaver, the creator of the world in several world mythologies. The web of life and mothering qualities are here, but there is also a watchfulness to this Queen, as a guardian to the Earth, a nurturing omniscience.

I don’t often get this card, but with my Dad going into a care home and his condominium being sold off, it does remind me of my Mom. She has been dead for twenty years but that was her home and as such it was an anchor or home base in the family and a reminder of her spirit.

The Madrone of Bells came to say “I am still here.” The other Queens say the same thing, and watch and comfort.



Another Swimmer

Daily Draw March 14th, 2013

Well, I’m swimming in it this week.



Am I the only person who thinks that the London Eye ferris wheel is a bit of an eyesore? I knew one fellow who lived outside of London and he hated the thing, and I used to wonder why, but now it’s starting to bug me! It never used to bother me but it seems to be in the way a lot; this great, bloody, goofy wheel down at the harbour blighting photographs….

I’ve been up since 4 a.m. working on a file of poetry favourites and attendant graphics for my Dad. Eleven poems and twenty-one pages. I couldn’t get the thing out of my mind until I finished it. Several of the poems were ones my Dad used to read aloud for us when we were young so it’s a bit sad. Anyway, I hope they may give him some pleasure and comfort in his new care home.

And that is perhaps the victory this card suggests. Now I am back to beta testing a program for a programmer I sometimes work with. So far it is flawless, this guy is an excellent programmer and so inventive and imaginative.

I’m tired. I can tell this is going to be one of those days when I nod off in the chair. And then a cat will start roaring in my ear for food, or a dog will dance for food, or to go out, or just because he’s excited to hear Benjamin Britten’s Serenade for Tenor, Horn, and Strings on the radio.

As aren’t we all. Wake up out there Echo is calling!



Inventions of the Mind, Away!

Daily Draw February 11th, 2013

I haven’t been feeling much like talking, so my blog suffers. February has been hard for me for the last three years as I don’t get out and I’ve injured myself a few times. Blah.



I rarely pull this card. There is lots of energy here but it’s like it is being directed to the wrong thing. So you are defending yourself or standing firm or simply getting interference that inhibits your action. In some ways this can be your own attitude or mind getting in the way, like a boxing at shadows paranoia.

This man looks so tense, so unbelievably pouring energy into that constant stance of readiness. I wonder if this is an awareness type of card where I’m being told not to expect February to be bad just because it was in the past? I also think this might point to my fear and worry over attending a wedding later this year. Oh yes, well make sure you ruin the ensuing months gearing up for that event with perpetual muscle tension and eye strain looking into the future!

Such a lot of tension and strength going to the invented situation, the shadows. Now, I must think of that energy going into some sewing and knitting projects I have lined up. I’ve been dithering (no, not you Jude!) and getting into a tizzy expecting it not to go right because the last little knitting project did not go well and I abandoned it. Not to mention the tension of cutting into fabric and using the sewing machine with my wonky knee.

It’s no wonder my knee is wonky, I’ve been holding this stance of tension for weeks. Come on fella, relax for crying out loud. Enjoy the small moments of fun in life, do something fun right now, today, and leave these other inventions away from you where they can disappear.



Reach and Polish Your Sword

Daily Draw January 2nd, 2013

I was getting some bits and pieces ready for entering five decks into my card database, and this card fell out. This has always been a personal card for me, and I call it the “Reach” card.



You can do anything, you can reach for anything, you can stretch, learn, and overcome anything. Willpower, courage, intellect, new ideas, invention, it all belongs here. This is the realm of reason and analysis, the energy of knowledge, order, conquest through organization.

My kind of card.



The Pattern of Etched Cups

Daily Draw December 28th, 2012



This is a card of such balance and yet differences are allowed; a perfect image for a personal relationship.

Union, intertwining, light shining. I also like the idea of the union of inner opposites, so that an individual who has felt fragmented in the past can bring their personality opposites into better harmony within themselves. Patterns that shine light on other patterns, that then shine light on further patterns. Look at all the patterns in this card: the shirt, the tattoo, the lamppost, the backgrounds and windows in the buildings, the etching on the glasses, the lines in the haircuts, the pattern of shadows.

Yet they all go together like layers of feeling spreading out to unite outer things, and on and on.