Daily Draw October 22nd, 2009
Every now and then I feel such a distance from the greater world of tarot that I go on a browse over the Internet looking for new decks or books, and generally listening to what people are saying.
There is one recent tarot book I am intrigued by, but I realized that the associations the author adds on to the cards bug me. I feel it an arbitrary imposition if systems like numerology are butted onto cards.
Yesterday morning I was reading what used to be one of my favourite books, and the author’s death grip on Kabbalah for every card was starting to bug me too. Who says Binah means this or that or is related to this card or that? Who says this card or that one obviously relates to 4 or 6 or whatever? The cards never did in the beginning, so who decided? One lady argued with me vehemently about numerology once on a tarot list, saying that her parents had been numerologists and she too had been practicing it for years. So what? Why should I or anyone else add those associations onto cards because you and your parents chose to? Why should I believe what you do?
That’s why I like to putter the way I putter on this blog: Mixing and matching books and cards, and making things to go with decks and occasionally making my own decks on the computer.
No constraints or impositions, isn’t it lovely in the quietude?
Today I am entering the Bafflegab World of Osho and the New Century.
FIVE OF PENTACLES
28 – SELF-ACCEPTANCE
I love the way Rolf Eichelmann put those clouds in the Five of Pentacles. It reminds me of Nigel Jackson’s clouds in the Rumi Tarot. Into each life a little cloud will saunter, wisping across the horizon, shadowing the day. Money, and you don’t need a lot to be comfortable, but if you have less than you need it drags you down. I had a dream last night where I went to the bank to change $40 into lower denominations and they didn’t give me my money back, the just gave me 11 large beads and insisted I hadn’t given them more bills.
Always this feeling of lack, of being robbed in life. Some assertion of infinite abundance would be helpful for me today.
However, Osho rattles on about self-acceptance in the next card. “Heart’s-Ease in the King’s Garden.”
In the picture, Heart’s Ease flourishes because it is just itself and happy. It isn’t like the oak, moaning about not being able to bear grapes or bloom like a rose. God could have made a million Buddhas, Krishnas or Christs, but instead he made me. Their work is done, time for me to do my unique contribution.
Interesting that Osho speaks of priests saying you must be a rose or become a lotus, which very much reminds me of the tarot fundamentalists who say you must do this or that and this card means this or that and adds up to this number and means this.
“They drive the whole garden crazy, everything starts dying – because nobody can be anybody else, that is not possible.”
“That’s what happened to humanity. Everybody is pretending. Authenticity is lost, truth is lost, everybody is trying to show that he is somebody else.”
It is not possible to be anyone else but yourself. (Strange how they insist on it though. Yikes.)
Thank goodness I can’t be anybody else.