10 – FATE (Wheel of Fortune)
I love this: “The only constant factor in life is change.” which is exactly what Buddhists would say is impermanence, uncertainty, or ambiguity.
I also like the lighthouse on this card, similar to human consciousness lighting things up and then winking out, revolving to leave you in the dark. Flashes of light, insights, the choice is yours to be aware of them or not. You are the architect of your life.
Up and down, yin and yang. Last week was busy organizing, asking questions about moving, looking at available houses, but this week I started having nightmares about moving my pets. I gave away dozens of cats in one dream and found my yellow Lab (deceased for 3 years) in a cage in the fridge. At first I thought this was just worry about flying them out there. My dogs are both 11 and my cat is 14.5 years-old. The stress of going on a plane might hurt them. My Dad had encouraged me in 2002 to I kill all my pets so I could move into a condo. (Dear Dad, always sensitive to the feelings of others) so that might be where the dream of giving them all away came from.
Then I thought maybe it was about leaving them here. Most of them are buried here in the woods, so physically I would be leaving them. Then the dream became about the pets spreading disease and I had to wake myself up, I was getting too anxious.
I create the shape, the dream of life. Actually change can be spontaneity, which I always enjoy.
Worry about the pets, who are all old soldiers, seems to niggle at me constantly, even in dreams.