I rode my exercise bike for ten minutes yesterday and spent eight hours cutting a sewing a gardening hat for the spouse. Today I have edema and I ache all over. Fortunately I had blood tests yesterday and will go to the doctor next week. The medication I am on makes me feel sick and dizzy and gives me edema, which is not supportable in my view.
So, feeling a bit down today, I choose a nice postcard from Nakisha VanderHoeven that she sent with the Badgers Forest Tarot. It’s no wonder I like her decks, she does the most beautiful backgrounds in watercolour.
I like the way the mist funnels down in this, and the trees look like they are leaning in to listen to the mist or watch where it’s going. Mountains always look so mysterious drifting in an out of mist. I’m a bit worried about the feelings of hopelessness I have had all year. The last clinical depression I had lasted for eight years and I was overwhelmed with suicidal tendencies. I never want to go there again.
I don’t like the way I am drifting into that valley again. Perhaps, as I’ve seen lately in cards, this fog is merely a resting point, some gentle mist drifting in but leaving the trees unharmed? Trees have deep roots and can withstand a lot of weather conditions, they lean in, they listen, they sway and move flexibly.