Determination and Dots in a Journal

NINE OF WANDS

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The card is from my trimmed Tarot of Fire, which I am loving since I trimmed it! These men from India are walking on hot coals, and the booklet talks about faith and courage reinforcing the psyche.

It became apparent to me this week that I was going to have to change or I’d end up with a heart attack, stroke, chronic pancreatitis or in a bed with my legs amputated, or worse. In thinking about this, I realized that the last time I lost a significant amount of weight seven or eight years ago, I had used a food diary. It was a digital program and kept track of nutritional information, calories, and weight. I liked it, but when I went to get a similar program I found that everything had changed, mostly there are online records or apps, and I really don’t want to be chained to a computer entering meals and tracking what amount of water I drink etc.

I like to journal and use my fountain pens so I thought a food diary where I could do little pictures and quotes and poems would suit me. I had heard of a bullet journal three years ago but thought since I’m retired “What would I ever use that for?” but in looking at it again I think it might be ideal for my purpose in regaining my health. I couldn’t get hold of a Leuchtturm 1917 right now, so I ordered a Rhodia Webnotebook with a dot grid and it just came today. The paper is a creamy colour, so I’ll have to test pens and markers to see what shows up best.

When I pulled this card I thought of walking through hot coals and nothing being easy, but courage and determination go a long way toward moving you in the direction you want to go. I like the way he is holding a banner, as if to say “This is who we are and this is what we’re going to do.”

 

 

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New Decks, and an Old One, Refreshed

I find myself with six decks that I haven’t entered in the database yet. I entered Steve’s Spirit Within Tarot and then got bogged down with Christmas. The spouse gave me the Earth Magic Oracle for Christmas, and a wonderful friend sent me the Sol Invictus Tarot which I’ve wanted since it was published. One of my favourites, Socrates, is on the Queen of Swords in this deck, therein called the Nurturer of Swords. What a great title and that is my personal card so really delighted me. I am still reading through the writing in the Minors but when I’m done I’ll be using it. The other three I’ve talked about or used but I need to focus and get some scans done and the decks entered in the database.

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I also ordered the Earthbound Oracle which I’ve had on my wish list, so when it comes I’ll be entering that too in the database.

I bought myself a chrysocolla sphere for Christmas. I wanted one in a shop about 16 years ago and didn’t have the money so I saw one in December and took a chance. I’ve been doing a small painting of it in my sketch book. I just need to add some calligraphy and drop shadows to it, and I did another layer on it after this picture was taken. I spent two weeks painting up colour mixing charts for my 24-palette Winsor & Newton colours and my 17-palette Daniel Smith watercolours, so that’s another reason I was away from the blog, I really needed these charts done up so I can use them when I’m painting.

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I was given the Tarot of Fire deck several years ago and used it here on the blog, but it had really distracting orange borders. Recently, I took the plunge and trimmed them off and then ordered a new corner cutter. I think it is computer-generated art, but there are some very beautiful images and it is packed with world mythology and so interesting. Before I cut the borders off I typed up a trimmed sheet to fold in the box that contained descriptions of each card so that even without the numbers and titles I would be able to tell which card was what. I think it looks gorgeous trimmed.

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Since I got my iPad, I’ve been able to watch videos again, and I’ve been enjoying some of the many tarot-related videos at YouTube. I so rarely get a chance to talk about my decks as I like to do, so seeing other people talk about decks is the next best thing!

My arm is a bit sore because I’ve been drawing and sewing. Unfortunately I can’t do everything so have to pick and choose what to devote my energy to. Still, I’m finding a good balance between disciplines and projects. I want to use that Tarot of Fire on the blog since it’s all trimmed up and ready to go, so I’ll do that for a bit in the coming days.

 

 

Jet Black Quilt

I am having more fun with the Electric Quilt 8 program. This is another card from Crystal Portraits number two.

JET

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Years ago an Internet friend sent me a hardcover copy of A.S. Byatt’s novel Possession which I greatly enjoyed. In the story a brooch made of jet is featured and this card immediately reminded me of that. Jet is properly called lignite according to the card notes.

Jet was often used for mourning jewellery so can seem a bit spooky, apart from its dark colour. The association with bereavement is mentioned, but I liked that she talked about the “extreme powerlessness” that can accompany grief; it shakes you, shakes your confidence. There are other ideas in the write-up for this that I like. It’s supposed to be good for people who lack boundaries. A naturopath I went to told me I lacked boundaries so I was intrigued by this.

They use a sentence as a reminder in these decks that I like. This one says “there is a certain safety in darkness” which also holds true for me.

Today I received five little 5 mL tubes of Daniel Smith watercolours that I had special ordered. They cost on average $14 each plus $15 shipping. These were tiny, so I felt the price was pretty mean-spirited. I’m all for making a buck but this was robbery as the package measured about 2.5 inches square and was 5/8 of an inch deep. They are here and I am unlikely to beef up the 17 colours of Daniel Smith paints that I have since no one in Canada sells the small tubes online.

My big disappointment was that the Arthur Rackham Oracle that I ordered arrived, but he made a mistake and sent me the small deck instead of the jumbo/giant one I had purchased. He immediately rectified the mistake after I sent him photographs of the deck with a ruler showing the measurement. I can’t describe how this threw me for a loop, probably because I am planning to sew a quilted bag with crazy patchwork and charms and lace for the flap. My disappointment was absolutely soul-crushing, all out of proportion to the error.

I sat around in my nightie all day, trying to think why this upset me so. I don’t know, maybe the defeat of my anticipation?

It’s just a feeling. Hopefully tomorrow I will be recharged.

 

 

New Year with Mr. Bright

Steve Bright had a great 2-card draw for the New Year so I decided to try it.

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Ace of Swords – Normally this is a great card for me, and it does represent good ideas and the power of thought and mental energy. I finished my hand-embroidered nightgown and my tree mural in the front hall and the rest of the year I felt dragged under by hopelessness, caught up in physical pain and depression. Part of that might have been because my Dad died, but still.

Instead of reaching for creativity I bogged down in painful, unhappy thoughts, my sword focused on whining words of defeat. I didn’t believe in myself, I let all that inspiration fizzle out, I didn’t carry through. What a horrible year it was.

The Chariot – Set out, guide my life, no one else will do it for me. This card of success and momentum carries me along. “The being is the doing” as James Ricklef says, describing how in the Being, we accomplish what we need. I like the focus and balance of the skateboarder in this. He’s racing along, unstoppable, yet enjoying the whole experience. It’s not a daydream of success that moves us along, it’s the small moments and acts, experiencing life and joy.

 

 

Discover the Path

PINK HEULANDITE

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I have never heard of this stone before. In the pairings she mentions vetiver and oregano as going well with this and I love the scent of both vetiver and oregano. “One discovers the path while walking it.” is the reminder with this card. It’s supposed to aid those who feel shy and awkward which suits me today as a neighbour has asked us over for a Christmas visit.

It provides a sense of where the person is going and why, linking seemingly disconnected aspects of life.

I just love the colours.

 

Vast, Mysterious, and Dreamy

Yes, it’s the Universe today!

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I was up until 4:30 a.m. upgrading and installing the Electric Quilt 8 program. I have version 6 on my old Windows laptop and it was frustrating me that I couldn’t just use it. Mostly these days I print off paper piecing miniature patterns or make graphics to use for other things as you can see here. I hated version 6, so this was pleasant to upgrade and I’ll try and use some of the other tools as well. It certainly saves a clearer block and the fabrics fill much, much better than in EQ6.

I also updated the Garmin Express software on the Mac computer and then updated my Garmin portable GPS device.

This stone really does look like the aurora borealis. Wouldn’t we all want a chunk of Labradorite? Of course. I bought myself a chrysocolla sphere for Christmas, after wanting one for 16 years. I never had the money but I was able to afford it now so I kept the dream and fulfilled it. One of the enchanted aspects of the Universe is that when you’re old there are still dreams to be had.

Always carry the ethereal quality of the Northern Lights with you.

 

 

The Ferric Impurities of the Season

CITRINE

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I have some citrine chips that I use when making jewellery but not a larger stone, so I loved this big picture. Citrine is composed of quartz with “ferric impurities” which explains it’s translucence and smoky look.

What I liked about the write-up on the back of the card was the noted ideal pairings of cinnamon, gold, and frankincense, making this a great tie-in to the Christmas season. Citrine is good for “finding the energy to address blockages in projects or group dynamics.” You can build unselfish devotion to your own needs and self-worth. Definitely something I can use, as I’m bogged down on all my projects and feeling blahsville.

As part of self-care I decided to look around for Christmas ornaments. I couldn’t find the big Santa I’ve been looking for, and the pattern I bought to sew one last year didn’t quite work out, so I bought a used, uncut McCalls sewing pattern for a 15-inch Santa and some sheep locks to make his beard. They will be mailed after Christmas but hopefully I can get one sewn for next year.

When we were out yesterday I found this little fellow in a store. He’s a tree ornament, but much too big for my tabletop tree, so he thought he’d roister about those presents under the tree (which are fake), and because he’s on a spring, he likes to dance and wobble to Christmas carols. As you do.

I think he has some gold embroidery on his bag, making him vitally interested in Citrine.

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He’s also super excited because my Arthur Rackham Oracle has shipped. Good season to you!