Wasted Days

Posted July 23, 2014 by JJ
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Another Pentacle today. I didn’t pull this card until 7 p.m. as I had my computer turned off. It is my 38th anniversary today and I got some lovely flowers and a card in the afternoon and an exciting trip to the library in the morning. Neither one of us is feeling it, we are just sitting and reading and not talking. I have bad pain and am depressed and and he is depressed.

It does not make a good celebratory day. We tiptoe around each other, he tuning me out when I speak, and me shutting down into my own mind. A good book makes a good companion fortunately.



I did not want to see this guy. Mr. Practical energy, Mr. Business. The only thing I can think of for today is that he’s steady, much like my husband. Wheee!!!

So, not a great day. Meh. That’s the way it is some days, even anniversaries.

Lalalala, back to W is for Wasted.



Loops, Looping, Grinding Away

Posted July 22, 2014 by JJ
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Not a great day, I hurt my back and knees trying to do housework yesterday and today (particularly floor scrubbing and sweeping), and Norton is still eating my hard drive. So I came downstairs and watched a couple of half hour shows on Cottage Life television and watched my floor dry very slowly in the humid weather, to try and settle my mind. I ate lunch, it was nice to take a break.


This is supposed to be a card of philanthropy or material gain. I am not feeling it, I’m feeling my CPU getting hotter and hotter while Norton grinds away doing whatever it is that it won’t let go of. Ah there, it has finally let go of its loop.

I also think I’m a little anxious over two projects I need to do. I don’t want to do them when I’m irritable, as I tend to wreck things when in such a mood, but not doing them gets me worried.

And on and on it goes. Speaking of loops and programs. Maybe this card is about taking the attention off myself…I don’t know. It would be a kindness to me.


Stoop and Mend, Patching With the Unconscious

Posted July 21, 2014 by JJ
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Isn’t this beautiful? No wonder I’ve been thinking about this deck.

This is a taking care of business card, maybe envisioning or waiting for new things. Here she is looking after things, tidying up almost. There is a small patch of blue on her marble-patterned dress, which reminds me of Jo’s patched muslin dress from the book Little Women. Jo had the habit of standing in front of the fire to get warm and her dress scorched one time she did that, so she had to patch it.

It’s very practical to patch expensive clothes. Perhaps persistence and plugging away, letting my unconscious work on things while I do practical tasks, might be the message.



Crop and Let it Go

Posted July 20, 2014 by JJ
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The scanning abilities of my new printer are not too good. Note to computer companies: program the software to preview and crop and adjust the colours before scanning! To be fair, my old Epson allowed this but the new Canon does not (nor did the evil Brother printer I had to return), hence the reliance on my buddy Photoshop.

A friend and I were talking about old decks and the flavour and creation of decks that existed 15 to 25 years ago. He bought the Unicorn Tarot to try and recapture that, and I decided to drag out some of the oldies but goodies and keep them down here to use. I never like to truncate time to a schedule so I might use some for days or weeks and others for a day or whatever follows.

I have been thinking much of the Hudes Tarot, and had a bit of trouble locating it among three bookshelves and a cupboard until I remembered that I’d put it in a bag, and that particular bag is in the cupboard. It’s been in a few different bags over the years but I found the greens, golds and reds in this bag suited it, with the stars and compasses reflecting the stars and maps and charts used as patterns and backgrounds in the deck, so it found its final home.





This card always means a sickening feeling of obsession to me, the winding snake of the mind, a feeling that I can’t get enough or fill myself up. A reminder to crop the obsessive thoughts from the mind and concentrate on what I have. Too much daydreaming and wishful thinking is often a loop I get stuck in.

Today I would like to sit down and create without all the wishful thinking. I want to draw and paint and colour and get something done. Something that may not be perfect but it is what has been in my mind for years. Get it out of the realm of daydreams and realize a design, that’s my activity for today.



All Is Well Under The Star

Posted July 19, 2014 by JJ
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PEACOCK – The Illuminator – XVII – The Star


I got my new printer today, which doesn’t have the best scanner but I LOVE this Star card. Peace and beauty and guidance and hope. Hopefully this bodes well for the printer.

I bought a Canon after a friend recommended Canon and the installation was much better than the evil Brother. I like that this book says “acceptance of what comes your way” which for me would include some good advice and a new printer which does what I want. Patience and encouragement, I am moving in the right direction.

All is well.



Hovering Bees Vibrating in the Sun

Posted July 17, 2014 by JJ
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Still at it, frigging around and worrying things on the computer. I got 1.5 hours of sleep last night and an extra 2.5 hours after the alarm went off at 5:30. Details, details, driving the mind.

Needless to say I am not exactly on steady ground today. I decided to do my routine card draw and blogging, and then I must get to some sewing. I finished a book but I am so anxious generally that I can’t sit and read. I feel the anxiety like a clamp across my chest and arm muscles—it really ramped up. Uptight, uptight, tight.

HONEYBEE – Heart Awakener – VI (The Lovers)


Vibration, sensitivity, a coming home to the self. Not much fun when you’ve let your Self vibrate away into obsession and insomnia.

So Honeybee is bringing me balance. I’m going to concentrate on happy tasks like finally, finally working in my handmade Towers journal after all this time. I had let it go, discouraged because the woman who gave me the original impetus to make the journal and had asked to start a study of the tarot Tower card, disappeared on me and seemed to lose interest. She was a vibrant, creative person, I felt such a letdown.

However, another artist and poetry lover has decided to work with me on this. I’m finding it hard to bring myself out of hibernation (I refuse to call it depression!) to work, but I have to learn to relax and let things go and just flow with art and words. I have to learn to trust people, as well as simply trusting myself.

You know how you build things up in your mind? This journal was like that for me as I went to extraordinary lengths to make it. So I’m afraid to wreck it, afraid to trust working together with someone. Afraid, afraid. It’s not that big of a deal, if I make a mistake, it’s not a big deal. It really isn’t. It’s about expression and working deeply with archetype, and I enjoy that. So just enjoy it Jude, let it go for bloody sake. Sheesh.

Interestingly, part of my poem for the title page uses sun and here the sun is shining: could be a sign maybe?



Existential Systemic Restoration

Posted July 15, 2014 by JJ
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Oh yes, here we go, I had to do a full system restore and get rid of all the Brother printer software. I phoned Staples and explained the problem and they said I could bring it back, so I will do that on the weekend. Now if only Norton would stop eating my hard drive. I’ve removed and reinstalled it three times and nothing seems to work. It has been going nuts all through the month of July.

Finding myself without a scanner, I thought I’d show a shot of a deck I want called Exist Playing Cards, full of caricatures of philosophers and existentialists and their famous remarks.


So, what I need is some pithy philosophical remarks about technology. Sartre said “Hell is other people” but I shall paraphrase that and say “Hell is software.” It’s a sad thing that the human intellect cannot create an anti-virus program that doesn’t kill the machine it is supposed to help. Likewise with printer software.

Kafka just shouted out “You are all free and that is why you are lost.”

Would that I could buy this card deck and ruminate on existential truth. Barring that I’m having a tea and will ponder my confusion in the face of an apparently meaningless world.



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